So in 13 days my oldest "baby" will be starting high school. I think the past three months I have been in serious denial. I have otherwise been distracted by summer, poopie diapers, and teething to name a few. But man oh man, here we go.
My son is an awesome kind of kid. He is smart, funny, temper mental, he really is 1/2 mom and 1/2 dad. He is so ready to begin this journey and have all these experiences that come with being a teenager. I frankly, am scared shitless. I was only 5 years older than he is now when I had him, and I pray every day that when the time comes and he faced with a difficult situation he makes good choices for himself. How do you know if you've done a good enough job with your kids? How do you know if you've instilled the morals and values that it takes to become a kind, accepting, good person? Well, I guess you just know when you know.
It's like you blink and they have armpit hair. I feel like he is ready, I feel very optimistic that he will be interested in good grades rather than JUST cute girls. Ahhhhh, the anxiety is setting in. I love that boy more than he'll ever know. He'll be great, it's me that's going to crumble. He might be my oldest but he is my baby. I was just a baby when I had him, so mine and his bond was always a lot different that most. We grew up together, we were always brutally honest with each other, he's growing up so fast.
Okay, so I'm in tears now. Must exit the blogging world and manage these emotions in the real world. It will be good, I have to embrace him and his youth and remember that he is no longer that 3 year old that loved his Hot Wheels almost more than his Momma. He is a sweet, smart, handsome young man that is excited for his future. I MUST embrace this at all costs. Support him and love him. Cherish him and teach him. Geeze...I am such a baby. I love you EJC...here's to the next 4 years!!!
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Good Days/Bad Days
This is a very real thing for me, I have found that in my line of work (as a nanny, chef, babysitter, driver, personal assistant, maid, etc) that I have to remind myself to take things one day at a time. I have been married for 3 years and am still adjusting to "married life". Don't get me wrong, I love being married and I seriously have one of the best husbands around, but man is it an adjustment. Then throw in the fact that we had two kids 13 months apart. WOW!
I know, it was my personal choice so why complain about it? I'm not complaining, I'm working it out on the Internet. Free therapy of sorts, just still adjusting. The order of kids go: boy 14 years, girl 21 months, boy 7 months.
Oddly enough the good days seem to be out numbering the bad recently. Which is awesome because I really thought I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown but then I get on the Internet or see my real therapist and realize that I'm not alone and millions of women have had the same feelings I've had. So even though I was pooped on, had pee poured on my foot, and had a teenager smart talk me before 9am...today still seems to be a pretty okay day. And for now, I'm okay with good and bad...as long as the good comes in bigger volumes. My family is my heart and soul. And I just hope that I'm doing a good enough job for them.
On a side note, I had a babysitter for a couple hours this morning which ruled. So I didn't even have to go the the bathroom with the door open! But I did anyways because I was home alone and could. HAHAHA The things that please me now are ridiculous.
~J
I know, it was my personal choice so why complain about it? I'm not complaining, I'm working it out on the Internet. Free therapy of sorts, just still adjusting. The order of kids go: boy 14 years, girl 21 months, boy 7 months.
Oddly enough the good days seem to be out numbering the bad recently. Which is awesome because I really thought I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown but then I get on the Internet or see my real therapist and realize that I'm not alone and millions of women have had the same feelings I've had. So even though I was pooped on, had pee poured on my foot, and had a teenager smart talk me before 9am...today still seems to be a pretty okay day. And for now, I'm okay with good and bad...as long as the good comes in bigger volumes. My family is my heart and soul. And I just hope that I'm doing a good enough job for them.
On a side note, I had a babysitter for a couple hours this morning which ruled. So I didn't even have to go the the bathroom with the door open! But I did anyways because I was home alone and could. HAHAHA The things that please me now are ridiculous.
~J
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
An old friend
This blog is like an old friend I had previously lost contact with but am now reacquainted. I'm sure not too many people will read this so I have big plans for this little blog. Brutal honesty! That's it, plain and simple. I am excited to have a place to come and speak my crazy mother-lovin mind. Ta-ta for now. I have a headache and thinking of a name for this here blog took a lot of energy.
~J
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
34 down...6 to go.
Wow! It's been awhile since I've last posted. Wish I would've came back to this blog sooner because I've had one hell of a year so far! Well I'm sure at this point I'm blogging for my eyes only, which is nice because I can rant on as long as I like and wont sound like Debbie Downer.
So...biggest news of all, We're pregnant!! We found out New Year's Eve and I took about 7 pregnancy tests, which to me were all "is that one line or two?" So we bit the bullet and got a digital pregnancy test, which of course gave us the desired outcome! A bit of a surprise although it's the best kind of surprise you could ask for! I was accepted to the culinary program at RCC and unfortunately could only attend for about 3 weeks because once the morning sickness kicked in...whoa! Seriously, EVERYTHING made me sick. Not just food, everything. People, cologne, bathrooms, gum. You name it, it made me sick. So that dream of culinary delight has been place on hold for now to expand my already amazing family.
Skip forward about 34 weeks (can you tell a pregnant woman is blogging, as we refer to time in weeks!) I have experienced at least 28 weeks of severe morning sickness, kidney stones, and broken bones. Oh wait...did I mention that I had to have surgery for my "broken bones"? Well, yes I did. How did I brake my ankle you ask? Well this would be the time that I should come up with some awesome story about how I was water skiing naked or working on my "Dancing with the Stars" routine. Nope, that's not how it happened at all. Simply put, I stepped off a curb. Went down like a ton of bricks. Broke my ankle in two spots, dislocated, and tore the ligaments in my heel. I required surgery. Which was terrifying considering I was 22 weeks pregnant at the time. Well...I don't want to dwell on that for too long because that was seriously 8 of the longest weeks of my life!
As of today I am 34 weeks pregnant and feeling tons better than I was a few months ago. It has been a very tough road, but I have no doubt what so ever that when I hold my daughter for the first time everything I've had to go through will be but a distant memory, replaced by a lifetime of happiness. Yep, we're having a girl. WTF...a girl? I had a feeling that she was a girl all along because of how sick I was and my pregnancy with Evan was nothing like this one. A little girl, the thought still makes me terrified. Girls are a whole new ballgame for Chad and me! We'll be fine though, and I already know he is going to be the best Daddy ever.
Okay...enough for today, as I have been ordered to rest by all of my loved ones (and doctors) for other issues that remain present ( we'll discuss that at a later date) Hopefully I'll be back soon, even if it is only for myself:)
Love to all,
Jamie
So...biggest news of all, We're pregnant!! We found out New Year's Eve and I took about 7 pregnancy tests, which to me were all "is that one line or two?" So we bit the bullet and got a digital pregnancy test, which of course gave us the desired outcome! A bit of a surprise although it's the best kind of surprise you could ask for! I was accepted to the culinary program at RCC and unfortunately could only attend for about 3 weeks because once the morning sickness kicked in...whoa! Seriously, EVERYTHING made me sick. Not just food, everything. People, cologne, bathrooms, gum. You name it, it made me sick. So that dream of culinary delight has been place on hold for now to expand my already amazing family.
Skip forward about 34 weeks (can you tell a pregnant woman is blogging, as we refer to time in weeks!) I have experienced at least 28 weeks of severe morning sickness, kidney stones, and broken bones. Oh wait...did I mention that I had to have surgery for my "broken bones"? Well, yes I did. How did I brake my ankle you ask? Well this would be the time that I should come up with some awesome story about how I was water skiing naked or working on my "Dancing with the Stars" routine. Nope, that's not how it happened at all. Simply put, I stepped off a curb. Went down like a ton of bricks. Broke my ankle in two spots, dislocated, and tore the ligaments in my heel. I required surgery. Which was terrifying considering I was 22 weeks pregnant at the time. Well...I don't want to dwell on that for too long because that was seriously 8 of the longest weeks of my life!
As of today I am 34 weeks pregnant and feeling tons better than I was a few months ago. It has been a very tough road, but I have no doubt what so ever that when I hold my daughter for the first time everything I've had to go through will be but a distant memory, replaced by a lifetime of happiness. Yep, we're having a girl. WTF...a girl? I had a feeling that she was a girl all along because of how sick I was and my pregnancy with Evan was nothing like this one. A little girl, the thought still makes me terrified. Girls are a whole new ballgame for Chad and me! We'll be fine though, and I already know he is going to be the best Daddy ever.
Okay...enough for today, as I have been ordered to rest by all of my loved ones (and doctors) for other issues that remain present ( we'll discuss that at a later date) Hopefully I'll be back soon, even if it is only for myself:)
Love to all,
Jamie
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Same Ol' Same
Hello All 2 of you that may periodically pass by and read this. Not too much has changed around the ol' Ohlheiser home. Same old Same!
I recently applied to the RCC culinary program. I won't know if I got in until the end of October. Our fingers are crossed. I'm still trying to find work but it has been tough, I'll be honest with you. Chad is doing amazing, he recently got two raises at work and is picking up new projects left and right. I used to get irratated by this but now I understand that he really does enjoy it. Him and I are participating in a really cool Haunted House type thing with a production company that he will be working with in the Spring. It's a really cool idea.
Evan entered a poem in a Reflections themed project at school and won 1st place. We are so proud of him. I will post it up here, very witty that one.
That's all for now...
Keep doing whatcha doing!
XXOO
Sunday, July 27, 2008
The First Time
I'm jumping on the blogger bandwagon! It's a good way to stay updated and connected! Chad and I will try to update as much as possible.
Well, we have been married for almost 3 months now, WOW! I love married life, even though we have been living together for 2 years, it really is an adjustment. As I'm sure many of you married people know. We have been keeping super busy, Chad is working at the Redlands Theater Festival again this year, which I would highly recommend each one of you attend, his shows are awesome!! It's really cool, you can pack a little dinner and bring a little wine, picnic at the park and watch a great show! He is also still doing Fender, RCC, and UCR. My hubby is a busy man!
I've recently decided to go back to school and finish up the whole court reporting thing. I am very determined and have quite a few goals ahead of me. It's kinda stressful, but hey, welcome to the real world right? I'll keep ya'all updated as I achieve my goals!
As for Evan, he is still on summer break and loving it! We put him in a day camp at one of the parks near our house and he absolutely loves it! He swims everyday, plays with other kids his age, plays volleyball, you name it. He really seems happy!
That's about it for us as of now, we'll see how this blog transforms...
until then,
~Jamie
Well, we have been married for almost 3 months now, WOW! I love married life, even though we have been living together for 2 years, it really is an adjustment. As I'm sure many of you married people know. We have been keeping super busy, Chad is working at the Redlands Theater Festival again this year, which I would highly recommend each one of you attend, his shows are awesome!! It's really cool, you can pack a little dinner and bring a little wine, picnic at the park and watch a great show! He is also still doing Fender, RCC, and UCR. My hubby is a busy man!
I've recently decided to go back to school and finish up the whole court reporting thing. I am very determined and have quite a few goals ahead of me. It's kinda stressful, but hey, welcome to the real world right? I'll keep ya'all updated as I achieve my goals!
As for Evan, he is still on summer break and loving it! We put him in a day camp at one of the parks near our house and he absolutely loves it! He swims everyday, plays with other kids his age, plays volleyball, you name it. He really seems happy!
That's about it for us as of now, we'll see how this blog transforms...
until then,
~Jamie
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